LOCK DOWN | OPEN UP
2020Â
National Lockdown, The Netherlands
Online project
Part 2
500 x 70 cm
(Mobile phone) camera, carboard and printed photos on paper.
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In this research of self-isolation part 2, I have asked others to participate in my research on a voluntary basis.
I wanted to investigate if there are similarities with others in periods of isolation and their effects on our mental state/health. I have conditions listed to which the participants must adhere.
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By this experiment they do not became completely isolated from the world because they had a contact moment with me every day. This is evident from feedback conversations with the participants. They have more insight through this research got into their mental health by taking a moment each day to reflect on how they really feel. It was confronting for everyone, sometimes the worst days were not recorded, but especially the smallest moments of happiness were always recorded.
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This period concerns March 19, 2020 to April 20, 2020 (from left to right).
DAY NOTES
Notes from different participants, compared to the same days.
24-03-21
'I feel alone and disappointed in people.'
'IÂ need to take better care of myself.'
'How long would this take? I really can't stay that long in this student house with these roommates, it's already driving me crazy.'
26-03-21
'I have human contact and I feel whole, I hope this feeling stays.'
'I feel good, I'm going to work on putting the finishing touches on my move.'
'I am the sunshine in the house.'
04-04-21
'I think constantly, but then again I don't. I'm here but also completely not. I feel empty and flat.'
'Very tired and full of stress.'
'I actually am going to like this lockdown for having time of my own.'
10-04-21
'Enjoy, because while making my work I have to squeeze my eyes closed to the sun.'
'Feeling empowered, getting into a daily structure again.'
'Walked for 5 hours to clean my head, started feeling very depressed but feeling greatful now.'
15-04-21
'I feel restless. As if I want to enjoy but I'm not allowed to. Like I have to move on because there are still so many things I have to do. Of can do. Of should want to do. Why?'
'I don't know what day it is, where I am or who I am anymore. Just sitting here for days with my thoughts and really getting sick of it.'
'I feel good, done a lot today, a surprisingly productive day. Finally some inspiration to draw again.'
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19-04-21
'You will naturally become more creative if you take a picture of yourself every day :) I notice that I get into a bit of a rut, even though I still go to quite a few places. But all the days are starting to look alike. Maybe I should plan another week and weekend again? It now feels like I do a little bit every day, which makes me a bit satisfied every day but never really rested.. And so I'm never really satisfied and have worked really well.'
'Today a photo in the morning, because I woke up with this lovely sun. Enjoy your day.'Â
'I am so proud and happy with myself'.